You must know... surely, you must know it was all for you..... My affections and wishes have not changed, but one word from you will silence me forever. If, however, your feelings have changed, I will have to tell you: you have bewitched me, body and soul- and I love, I love, I love you. I never wish to be parted from you from this day on. ~Pride & Prejudice

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

some of my random thoughts .....

just my opinion here... but who in their right mind walks away from Leilani Sarelle (Roxy) for Michael Douglas?
hmmm? .... just wondering....

Friday, October 21, 2011

Time & Tide -Basia




It's hard for me to stop my heart
Love never knows when the time is right
I don't want to hurt anybody but
Can't help loving you
I never felt like this before
I know this is passion worth waiting for
Let life take its course
That's the only thing for us to do

We've got time, oh baby
There's no rush gonna be a better day for us
Hang on and I will wait for you
Our love will always stay as good as new

Time and tide, nothing and no one
Can stop us now, for better, for worse
This time I'm sure it's gonna last

How can I stop my heart?
Love never knows when the time is right
Don't want to hurt anybody
Don't want to make them cry
Don't want to make them cry
We've got time, oh baby
There's no rush gonna be a better day for us
Hang on and I will wait for you
Our love will always stay as good as new
It's a matter of time
Only a matter of time
It's a matter of

Time and tide, nothing and no one
Can stop us now, for better, for worse
This time I'm sure it's gonna last
It's gonna last forever
We've got time, oh baby
There's no rush gonna be a better day for us
Hang on and I will wait for you
Our love will always stay as good as new
Yeah, our love will always stay as good as new

We've got time, oh baby
There's no rush gonna be a better day for us
Hang on and I will wait for you



Friday, October 14, 2011

A few moments alone.
Silence.
Stillness.
Seconds to recognize this massive space between an authentic connection and the existing isolation.
A touch. Tremble. Release….
Suddenly overwhelmed by a flood of unhappiness and an immeasurable amount of discontent. Then tears. Endless the questions and fear seem. I wait… wonder and feel as though every step I take is the wrong one… leading back into this rotation. I cannot stop longing… I can’t … The ache is continuous and profound.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

the embodiment of an inside view

Does anyone really know what is inside you? Can they truly tell what you're thinking deep down or do you wear an exceptional disguise? It amazes me how many people walk around as if they're asleep. Are you faking it; sleepwalking or is it that you just don't care anymore? Don't you want more, doesn't happiness call out to- beckoning for a frolic in the early morning sunbeams? I know what my answer is to these questions.... and of course, that's classified information.

 Already connected, I feel massive mood swings and I cannot stand how essential this odd commodity is to me. Working on balances in my life, I look inwardly to things that will fill the void, not to falsehoods or individuals of any kind. My happiness is my own,... or at least I thought it was.... Seemingly now I have a leaseholder with whom I can't comprehend the time when they took up residence in my affections. Not dealing well with the loss of control, I go from joy to madness to quickly most days.
There aren't many moments in life as one gets older that you can honestly reach out and grasp the things that came so easily as a child. And when you can capture those seconds of serenity, you hold strong and fast. I recognize that I want to be known and loved for each and every single silly thing that makes me exactly me. I won't be OK with anything less. And so, I fear the new but it makes me ache with sweet what if's .... and the old causes a suffering that is getting to be too much to carry. Reality has no welcome here, that much I do know.

I actualize my stupidity, full on- but the wounds from the past and the torment of constant despondency in the broken promises keep me from real rational thought. And even with this idiocy- I see that if I had no real adoration towards my pain and heart keeper, I would of acted out long ago. But I do not-- so instead, I have such inner turmoil I can hardly function. Guilt, responsibility, accountability and authentic respect makes me hold back.... Painfully, I do hold back --wondering if the chances of age and circumstance make this all just a precious delusion that I won't be able to conjure up again any time soon.





Copyright 2011 Jennifer Rose




Thursday, May 19, 2011

just my thoughts on the film, Closer

There are moments captured in the film that are truly lovely... quietly sexy and poignant. The part I like best is at Julia's characters photography opening.... Natalie Portman and Jude Law (they are lovers in the film) come to view the photos since Natalie is in one. The conversation is a bit trite between Natalie and Clive Owen (Julia's man in the movie)- they are off alone standing in front of the photo taken of Natalie. Out of nowhere there is the unbelievable tension between these two actors and just as suddenly, Clive stops and reaches up and touches Natalie's face. He lingers there for a seconds... staring deeply into her eyes, almost as if to kiss her, but he doesn't... and the music posted here below is playing-- its all light and airy but still has the slight pressure of attraction. Watching this part in the movie, you can nearly feel their breath - you are so caught up with them ..... its utterly beautiful. I hear this song and I'm right back there with those two, catching my breath with empty anticipation....

The moment ends just as quickly as it began- with no kiss. Its funny, all of the loose and promiscuous actions that are either shown or discussed in the movie make the film on the whole sort of hard to take. But for some reason the moment that I spoke of doesn't feel that way for me- as wanton as it almost was. This part comes across more desperate, moderately sad and abruptly passionate more so than many other parts in the movie that I viewed as a tad sleazy or narcissistic...but somehow not that scene. Anywho- I love that part... it honestly moves me.


Sunday, December 12, 2010

somewhere I have never travelled, gladly beyond

by E. E. Cummings


somewhere i have never travelled,gladly beyond
any experience,your eyes have their silence:
in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,
or which i cannot touch because they are too near

your slightest look easily will unclose me
though I have closed myself as fingers,
you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens
(touching skilfully,mysteriously)her first rose

or if your wish be to close me, I and
my life will shut very beautifully ,suddenly,
as when the heart of this flower imagines
the snow carefully everywhere descending;

nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals
the power of your intense fragility:whose texture
compels me with the color of its countries,
rendering death and forever with each breathing

(I do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens;only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)
nobody,not even the rain,has such small hands

Friday, December 10, 2010

Then, Now ....Always

How can I ever forget you
You don't know just what I've been through
The holiday we spent together
Lives with me now and forever

I tried but I can't find you
Tell me now what do I do
I tried but I can't find you
Tell me now what do I do

I can't find my piece of mind
Because I need you with me all of the time
I used to think about you night and day
I used to feel what language cannot say
Oh I can't find you
No I can't find my piece of mind without you

Maybe you'd write me a letter
And tell me why I never met you
Our rendezvous just ended in sorrow
Without you there's no tomorrow

I tried but I can't find you
Tell me now what do I do
I tried but I can't find you
Tell me now what do I do

I can't find my piece of mind
Because I need you with me all of the time
I used to think about you night and day
I didn't care what other people would say
Oh I can't find you
No I can't find my piece of mind without you

I can't find my piece of mind
Because I need you with me all of the time
I used to think about you night and day
I used to feel what language cannot say
Oh I can't find you
No I can't find my piece of mind without you

Ibiza, Majorca, and Benidorm too
I've searched all these places but never found you



Mr. Disco -New Order